I quit because God said so.

I already know what you're thinking. Not again. Not another 'God told me to *fill in the blank* story, that someone just replaced 'I' with 'God'. On the flip-side, you may very well be reading this for confirmation. To see if this is parallel to what you're currently going through. Maybe God told you to quit *fill in the blank* too. God told me to quit my job. That's my *fill in the blank*, but it's actually true.

A brief synopsis of me and my personality. If you're into enneagram's, I'm a 6w5, that's your synopsis. If you're not, I prefer security. I know there's no true security apart from Christ, but roll with me. I also am one to stay at a job, in a place, *insert any noun*, much longer than necessary. Why? Because me, myself and I decides that I need to for a certain allotted time. Even if God deemed it time to go. I am not one to quit without Plan B secured! That's me. That's your synopsis, non-enneagramers.

How'd you know it was God? 

Cause hon-ey! I ain't have not nan (non for you that aren't fluent in Ebonics) back-up plan. It was March 27, 2021 and I was up thinking through everyTHANG. Processing life and thinking through various options. You know, those night where you really want to go to sleep, but can't. I was frustrated and wanted to cry. I was pleading, "Lord, I just want to go to sleep." Now that I look back, God wanted to talk to me. Even as inconvenient I may have selfishly deemed it at the time, it was the most convenient. Why? Because God knows His children. He knew that He'd have my undivided attention, so that was the proper time to. 

I'd been in a transitional period for about a year at this point, and I'd consulted with my Heavenly Father and tried various things (purchasing a home, going back to school and moving to NYC), but it all fell through. I'd been praying and asking for clarity, direction wise. Then there it was, a four letter word, 'Quit'. A quiet, still voice with one word that simply said, "Quit." Quiiiit *insert Soulja Boy meme*. I heard it and everything I was processing through, wasn't anything remotely close quitting. After being baffled for a few seconds, I came back to Earth and asked, "Lord, is that you?!" I thought, "If it's you, please make it apparent and don't let the nudge ease up." I know, I know, foolish. God said quit the first time and that's all it should've taken, but God is so patient and gracious! 

That nudging, push didn't go away. So that Monday (3/29), I drafted a two-weeks notice.  I drafted it that morning at work and prepared to submit it. I hovered over the send button, nervously. Internally, I was highly freaking out. "Am I really about to do this? God, you really want me to submit this?", I thought. I chickened out and ended up submitting the next day. I thought things all the way through and ended up submitting a months notice. One, to give my boss time to get another employee. Two, to allow me to pay off my student loans in full. 

P.S: I will state that, this didn't fully catch my boss off-guard as I told her that I felt that God was leading me elsewhere in 2021, but I didn't know when. I was transparent with my boss and even notified her about my application for another internal position in NYC.

It is April 24, 2021 and this won't be posted until next month, if not later than that. I am still in Kentucky, but I'll be back in Florida. Look for an update on where I am and what life looks like for me. 

"I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship." - Romans 12:1

Obedience is worship. Press on in worshipping God with your whole lives!

All the Love,

Shania M. ♡